Quick update, since I just got the call from the nice nurse at the RE. They did ICSI on the 13 eggs and 9 fertilized!
Nine!
Nine makes me happy!
(Note last time they retrieved 18, fertilized 17 and only 10 took so this is already a far lower attrition rate.)
Oh please please please let this all work out.
I have been trying so hard to keep a positive attitude and to not get all depressed that I have to be doing this at all, and I've been trying to remain super hopeful about the possibility of this working. It hasn't been entirely easy, and there are times that I was really close to slipping into the grip of the self-pity that I often feel around things baby-related. But I've been pretty much pollyanna this whole cycle -- so much so that a friend complimented me on what a great attitude I had (and told me that I could drop the act if it was that). But it wasn't -- I am hopeful.
But I am also scared. I'm terrified that I've actually convinced myself that this will definitively work, and that when (oh please no) it doesn't I will sink into a very very black place.
But for now hope feels good. Good like the bright sun felt on my shoulders at lunch, and good like the vanilla milkshake I had last night. And good like the pink hyacinth in my office that is all perfume-y and wonderful. So I am tempting the fates and continuing to be hopeful.
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Great news on the fertilization! I am hoping everything goes excellent for you! I heard once that being optimistic and laughing a lot helps relax women going through IVF. Looks like you're well on your way to success!
ReplyDeleteYay for the fert report!!! That's wonderful news. Hope is a great thing and I hope you can hold on to it!!!
ReplyDeletethis is great news -- and esp good that your spirit is remaining strong. I hope this is a new plateau in the roller coaster that won't ever drop back down. I got all my appendages crossed.
ReplyDeleteWow! 9?? That is a really awesome number :) Many, many congratulations coming your way!!!
ReplyDeleteI say you ride the hope train for as far as it takes you. Because as we all know, having hope during IF is a rare thing and dammit, you DESERVE to be happy for a little while. So be happy with the 9 embies -- cheer them on and send them happy mental good mojo.
Sending you lots of luck ...
What happy news! Keep going lucky nine!
ReplyDeleteHurray for nine! Well done on the wonderful attitude! Happy women get pregnant and I have high hopes for you!
ReplyDeleteLove,
Maddy
Your attitude is an inspiration! I'm so happy for you and the beautiful 9 fertilized eggs! Good for you for being able to stay so positive and hopeful. I hope for all good things for you. Good Luck!
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