This blog is about my life, my quest to build my family, and the random stuff that comes up along the way
Friday, December 4, 2009
My walk home
This is an older photo from earlier this year when the leaves were still on the trees, but I took the same walk home today and this was my view. (This photo has pretty cruddy resolution since it was taken from my bberry, but you generally get it.)
Today was my official last day at work, and even though I don't know what's coming next, I am at peace with my decision to leave.
I'm a 42-year old (yikes I hate writing that) woman struggling to maintain my equilibrium (and sanity) while trying to start a family. Turns out that neither is all that straightforward. And now that I have a baby boy, I'm learning to balance family and work without losing my mind!
Mar 2013 -- Go in for Day 2 blood work to figure out where period is and learn I am miraculously pregnant. Beta #1 173. Bleeding at 5w. Gestational sac small and large subchorionic hematoma. But betas still doubling (up to 22,000). At 6w1d fetal pole found and slow heartbeat (65bpm). At 7w2d no heartbeat. M/c #2.
Sep -Dec 2012 -- I've seriously lost track. 2 or 3 more IVF cycles
Aug 2012 -- Let's take a look around -- hysteroscopy.
April 2012 -- IVF #4. 15 eggs retrieved. 14 mature. 6 fertilize. Transfer 3 3-day 8-celled embryos. Beta 1 (12dp3dt) = 39. Beta 2 (14dp3dt) = 104. Beta 3 (16dp3dt) = 264. Beta 4 (19dp3dt) = 920. Beta 5 (22dp5dt or 5w4d) = 2664. U/s at 5w4d shows sac right where it should be. U/s at 6w4d shows 7.7mm embryo with strong heartbeat. 3 days later gone. M/c# 1.
Feb 2012 -- IVF #3. 14 eggs retrieved. 11 mature. Only 2 fertilize. Transfer 1 3-day 8-cell embryo. BFN.
Feb 2011 -- Healthy baby boy born at 36 weeks!
Jun 2010 -- FET #2. Transfer 1 5-day blastocyst. Beta 1 (10dp5dt) = 254. Beta 2 (13dp5dt) = 1326. Scan at 5w6d shows fetal pole measuring 4.55mm and heart beginning to flicker! U/s at 7w6d shows strong hb and 17.2mm.
Mar-Apr 2010 -- IVF #2. 13 eggs retrieved. 5 on day 3. Transfer 2 8-cell embryos. BFN.
Jan-Feb 2010 -- FET #1. Transfer 1 5-day blastocyst. BFN.
Nov-Dec 2009 -- IVF #1. 18 eggs retrieved, 7 on day 3, 5 on day 5. Transfer 1, freeze 2. BFN.
Oct 2009 -- Ready to go! But surprise -- annual clinic 2-week closure.
Jul-Sep 2009 -- Keep trying a few more months, since Boy thinks we need to give it a bit more time.
May-June 2009 -- Go see several REs. Decide to jump to IVF. Full set of bloodwork done. Ridiculously normal.
Feb-Apr 2009 -- Clo.mid, clo.mid and more clo.mid. Nada.
Feb 2009 -- Talk to OB about why I'm not knocked up yet. Have good FSH (6.2) and respond well to Clo.mid (7 follicles)
Nov 2008 -- Married. Yippee!
Aug 2008 -- Stop birth control. Figure my dress would hide an early pregnancy. Hah.