Last night I went to dinner and a play with my MIL. We saw Let Me Down Easy by Anna Deveare Smith, which was really excellent. Depressing, but excellent. And while it did address the inequities in our health care system, as well death and dying, it wasn't a total downer, and in some ways was very empowering. So if you can, go see it.
Today, when I woke up, what was in my head was the Ann Richards character saying "It's all in my head, whether I have a good day or not." And so today I was determined to have a good day, because if she can have a good day even while fighting a losing battle with cancer, I should be able to get my whiny act together and have a good day too.
And so it was a good day, and is still a good day, and hopefully I will go to sleep and still feel content.
The follicles will be what they are, and this cycle will be what it is, and I'm doing everything I can (acupuncture, no caffeine, lots of sleep, lots of water, moderate exercise, blah blah blah) and so worrying about it isn't actually helping.
I really want to hold on to this sense of peace, even just for a couple of days.