Monday, February 22, 2010


Hey -- Even though I have sucked beyond suckiness about writing recently, I just got inspired and thought I'd fill you all in on what's going on. Or rather, what's not going on.

So let's recap -- after a negative to IVF v.1.0 right before Christmas, we started the process for FET v.1.1. And we transferred one lovely, beginning-to-hatch blastocyst on 17 Feb.

Why one when we had 2? I can handle a negative more than I can handle my husband hearing that we are pregnant with twins. Plus, this is so much fun, I'd like to do it again.

Anyway, here I am almost at 6dp5dt and I am starting to freak out a bit. I really don't know what to think -- I want so much to be hopeful and to think that this is really the one that worked, but at the same time I know that the more hopeful I am, the harder I will be hit by a negative. I'm going in early for my beta on Thursday (8dp5dt), so I'll know something. I'm going in early b/c Friday I am going away for a long weekend, and I would seriously lose my shit if I didn't even have some indication of whether this worked until Monday.

My symptoms are essentially nonexistent. Last time my boobs were hurting like crazy, but I had a lot of hormones in my body from the trigger and the 17 eggs I produced. This time, even though I am jamming progesterone up into my nether regions 3x daily, they (that would be the boobs) don't hurt at all. So no symptoms at all, unless you count some low-grade GI weirdness, but I think that just might be nerves.

But the fact that I don't feel physically anything isn't making this emotionally any easier. I just made plans to go visit my family (Mom and 94 year old grandfather) in late-March. What I want more than anything else is to be able to tell them that I am pregnant. Please please please let the little seed be doing something that will help it grow. Please please please.


  1. Lots of luck to you. The waiting is just torment! :) Hang in there.

  2. Holding hope for you too!
    I hate the waiting

    and thank you so much for your sweet words of support.
    I am so excited and so scared
    and just
    nap until week 12 has come and gone.

    fingers crossed for you!
    I will open my mantra of please please please to include you too!

  3. Fingers crossed for you!! good luck Thursday, hang in there til then (easier said than done!).