Monday, April 1, 2013

Ugh and double ugh: Udated

Been having some intermittent sharp pains/ dull achiness on the right side and since I was going in for bw this morning, mentioned it to the nurse.

US shows nothing.  And by nothing I mean nothing obviously in my uterus (where there should be a sac visible by now) and nothing definitive in either tube/ ovary.  I'm going to the fancy u/s (with the pregnant women, where they definitively diagnosed my m/c last year) at 11am.

Shit shit shit.

More later.

UPDATED:
Fancy u/s shows what may be a very small gestational sac in my uterus.  Nothing obviously awry anywhere else and no sign of bleeding anywhere.  Beta is 2199, so rising appropriately.  So I'm pregnant, but we can't really find it yet.

Option 1- a perfect gestational sac shows back up on Thursday with a yolk sac and other stuff.  All proceeds as we hope.
Option 2 - no sac anywhere/ sac shows up somewhere else.  Ectopic dx.
Option 3 - gestational sac there but small and continues to measure behind until it's all over.

I'm going to hope for Option 1 and bet on Option 3.

19 comments:

  1. Thinking of you and sending much love.

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  2. oh fuck. i'm just catching up with all your posts. Shit. I hope they see something at the high tech ultrasound. You've been through enough already! Thinking of you...

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  3. Oh no. Thinking of you and hoping this ultrasound shows something.

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  4. Crap.... I'm so sorry and sad for you.

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  5. Hoping for #1. Is it at all possible that your dates are off, and that you're not as far along? Really, really hoping for #1.

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    1. By my dating, I'm about 22 dpo, or 5w1d. Plus or minus a day. But sac should correlate with HCG levels.... Sigh.

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  6. I'm sorry. Hoping you get better news at your next appointment.

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  7. P.S. hCG levels vary greatly, and because you conceived naturally, your dates could be off by as much as 5-7 days. Not trying to give you false hope, just wanted to point these things out to you. . . .

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  8. I don't think that's exactly true, about beta levels and sac. I've had a sac in my uterus at EXACTLY the same time dating wise, 5w1-2d, when my beta levels have been everywhere from under 1000 to 6000+ That is, a higher beta doesn't mean you get to see something sooner, though generally a low beta means you're not far enough along to see something...

    this is gwinne, but I don't wnat to log in from work :)

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  9. Fuck. Oh fuck. Shit. Fuck. Shit. I am trying to think of something encouraging to say, but swear words are all that I can produce here... Even if the outcome is #1 (and I hope to god it is), you don't deserve this emotional trauma of the shitty wait for more news. I heard that a sac should be visible at 2000. You're just there at that level, so maybe a very small sac makes sense. I'm hoping your dates are off, and hoping against all hope that the outcome is NOT #2. I'm incredibly sorry for this scary news, and thinking of you. Scared for you, want to send a big hug.

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  10. Hoping so much that Option 1 is the one. ((hugs))

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  11. Trying to remain hopeful for you.

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  12. Me again. Just wanted to say this is good, given uncertainty about dates and all! And two days can make a big difference in terms of u/s...with Tiny Boy I had a small sac at 5w2d (beta was probably about 1000?) and 5w4d had yolk sac and beginnings of fetal pole, as I recall. And obvious happy ending :) Breathe.

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  13. There is a certain kind of hell in even average progress. It feels weak when the universe owes you strong, solid progress. It seems like awful advice, but prepping for the worst is what we do to protect ourselves. It is not over, and I will stand firmly in the number one spot. My thoughts are with you for that next scan. I take a ton of hope in Gwinne's story

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  14. Hoping for #1. And for a clear answer soon.

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  15. sending you LOTS of love and good luck wishes.

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  16. Option 1 option 1 option 1 option 1. Please. I think there's a ton of reason for optimism, but I wouldn't be up for feeling it either, so I like G's advice: just work on breathing.

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  17. Wish I had wise words but all I got is a big hug and hope. Good luck and more luck.

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  18. I am hoping for option 1, too. (I don't get to comment much, but I am following along and hoping like a mofo for you.)

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