Wednesday, August 11, 2010


CVS test is tomorrow morning and prelim results are due back either Friday afternoon or Monday.

I'm terrified.

We met with a genetic counselor today, during which time she reviewed all of the 100000 things that can be wrong, and then went over our test results (all fine from my bloodwork) and then we both created a family tree and discussed illnesses, etc.

At the end of it, the Boy was ready to curl up into a ball under the covers and I was nauseous. Pretty much everyone has/ had cancer or heart disease of some sort. Even if this potential child makes it out into the world ok, now we are worried that WE are going to die.

I'll let you know how the procedure goes. Like I said, I'm terrified.


  1. Awww, I'm sure it will all be fine. Before my amnio, the genetic counselor overloaded us with info and odds too, until we didn't know if we were coming or going. In the end, the procedure was easy and it gave us the peace of mind we needed to make it through the pregnancy without added worry. Good luck!

  2. I am sending so much positive energy your way!!!! I had a cvs and it was not so bad. They did mine vaginally so there was no crazy needle to look at. I didn't watch any of it and just looked at my husband instead. Did you already have the NT scan? I will be thinking of you tomorrow.

  3. Deep breaths. It will be fine. I've had two CVS's with varying results. Both went off seamlessly. The worst part was the table my doctor used which basically put me upside down with my privates up in the air waving around for all to admire.

    Preliminary results are tricky, so take it from a veteran if you get a weird result back don't freak immediately. When I had my first CVS my early results came back with two extra genetic markers in every cell. No one had ever seen this before. (And I went to Dr. John Williams who is considered to be one of the best in the whole country!) So, there were a couple crazy weeks (the process was drawn out because we crossed the Thanksgiving holiday. Oh joy.) while they let the cells mosaic and the extra markers magically disappeared. Supposedly it just a bad piece of placenta. The rest of the pregnancy had some other craziness that I won't bore you with, but the end result was a perfect baby boy.

    This time around my CVS was unremarkable. Early results: all good. (And I'm 43! With lots of cancer in my family too!)

    As long as your doctor has a long and uneventful CVS track record there is absolutely no reason to worry. Hang in there! I'll be sending tons of happy positive vibes your way tomorrow!!

  4. Good luck today! I'm sure it will be fine, you'll do great.

    You commented on my blog wondering if the worry ever goes away. Honestly, yes and no. I am somewhat more calm than I was 1 or 2 months ago, but I still worry. It comes in waves. I think getting through milestones will help - like this CVS test. When you get the good results back (fingers crossed!!) it will be one less worry. You'll still have others (and I totally think that is leftover from the trauma of IF) but as you get bigger, begin to feel movement, do the anatomy u/s, get past 24 weeks viability, etc, you can check off those worries off your list. But also, as a parent, you will always worry about your kid. We're just starting early!

  5. This stuff is so scary, both the CVS and the down-the-line genetic stuff. But I am thinking such good thoughts for you, that you sail through today's appointment and that by Monday you really and truly can start relaxing into this pregnancy, with the sweet knowledge that everything is okay.

  6. Well, yes, you are going to die. Sorry to break it to you. But not for a long time, after a wonderful life, and you'll be survived by your children and your many grandchildren. This does seem like a particularly scary moment, but the odds are very much in your favor. Best of luck making it through these days.

  7. I was reading all kinds of information over the last couple of days about CVS and amnio and have completely scared myself shitless. I can't decide how to approach all of this emotionally, and have been thinking that maybe I shouldn't consider myself pregnant until we make it through the CVS test.

    I'm trying really hard not to be a pain in the ass obsessed crazy pregnant lady with dh, but I just had to bring it up last night at dinner. He pointed out that we have made the best decisions we can. If the baby doesn't make it, it is not my fault, his fault, either of our faults. It is what it is. And, the odds of either miscarriage from the procedure or from getting bad results are pretty low (I estimated a conservative 95% chance things are all good for my situation). So, I am supposed to stop freaking out.

    And he's right. I need to focus more on today and take what comes as what comes, knowing it is out of my control. I'm ok with this today, probably not tomorrow once he's on that plane and about 11,000 miles away. But I'll try.

    Odds are so in your favor and my favor. Let's hold onto that. But I'm thinking of you ALL DAY and again all day every day until you get your results back.

  8. Oh, I know, it is so scary!!! But you thought long and hard about this and you made the RIGHT DECISION. Chances are extremely high that you will sail through this hurdle no problem. It is just rough, because the whole reason to go through this in the first place is to detect something that could potentially be wrong... but you don't want to detect something wrong!! So there is a bit of a conflict there. Fortunately, things will NOT be wrong, and then you'll be very reassured. I can't wait to hear the good news.

    Also, try not to worry about your own demise, too! :)

  9. It's a lot to take in at once. I am also hoping you sailed through this today. There are so many things to worry about and this hurdle is a biggie emotionally. The odds are very encouaging and I do hope that you'll be able to sit back and relax as this progresses. I know that I'll be a wreck, and you sound like you are hanging in there.